Walk the walk alone,
Know that everyone's there, but not anywhere near,
Feel the burden of responsibility drag you into the ground,
Reach your boiling point, let anger and frustration blow into the skies...
Alas, experiences not one man wants to live through, yet regardless I have lived.
The proof of patience I had to deal with, before the glory of a miracle let me know otherwise. God is there, despite what you live through. Cloudy days cannot diminish the glory of His everlasting light of hope, love, grace, joy, peace, and mercy on me.

I had given it up two minutes before it happenend. I was skating, looking for the place, but instead I had lost my way. After the dreadful day I'd gone through, was every bit of patience vanished into the air. I swore angrily complaining and whining like an unlearend child. Had I had 2 more minutes of patience...
When I had finally found the sport center, the moment I entered my senses were shocked by the layout of the place. 8 tv's were standing in front of the cardio devices; underneath the tv's lay the other fitness equipment right in front of the windows allowing an inviting view of nature delight the sight. Upstairs was the room prepared exclusively for the spinning lessons. Then, Before I entered the dressing rooms, I had to go across the fitness equipment; each one of them designed specifically for the training of nothing more but a muscle groep at a time. Once inside, had the gleam of the woodwork from the lockers caught the sight of my eyes. The neatness and perfection of work made me feel a sport star while I being nothing, was standing there. Before I went out, did my already startled eyes catch a glimpse of the sauna and resting room at my left side. As I went down the stairs, was my mind wondering with the longing of sporting there, but not being able to.

Sure enough, had the sight of it all bewilderd my thoughts. I was happy though, of being able to see it all and knowing that I had the chance to sport there for free at least for one day. Once back at the reception, had the lady who met me at the entrance let me fill some forms and not even knowing why, I simply filled them. As a natural reaction to the last question which said "Why wouldn't you sport with us?", I clearly answered because it was too expensive for me. When she let me see the prices, I had indeed written the right answer.
However, for God knows why, when she asked me which service I'd like to take and I answered the best one (That is, having all priviledges of the facilities), she wrote a joke of a price right next to official one: 9 Euros p/year in relation to 135!
I couldn't believe my eyes, but no...it was for real.

For a whole year am I am now able to sport in one of the most luxurious facilities for a price even cheaper than what I now pay at an already decent but cheap one with also everything on it.
Praise be to God for that!

My thoughts couldn't cope with it. I was speechless, the miracle I had once asked for had happened. Not even in my wildest dreams had I thought of being able to have such possibilities... However, by God's grace, it happened. This may be the beginning of many so longed dreams. I might even be able to work there eventually fulfilling the longings of my heart craved in me so long ago...

God is faithful...and even though I had already smacked His face with the angry words of mine, had his mercy on me once again let me see who He is. I felt so small, I felt so shamed. I could've trusted Him all the way through. I had to ask for forgiveness for the little faith of mine...I was speechless with mingled thoughts of thankfulness, excitement, own disappointment, love for him, shame for myself, wonder for what a Father I have, a Father not easily angered but full of love instead.

Now, with unnamed priviledges, a fresh new start, and a whole new perspective of the chances which this miracle involves, could I go make use of my free hour of training mounted on the bike inside the spinning room following the rythm of the music and changing of the coloured lights letting my mind fly...fly away from wry...

I can say that I'm ready to take a step further into the race of faith which has already been set prepared by the one who brings joy, peace, and love into my heart...

"But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you. To him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen." 1Peter 5:10,11