Saturday, May 28, 2005
Friday, May 27, 2005
Life, as beautiful as a Rose
4 days, 3 nights, one person...
It was during the conference of 'Opwekking' that it happened. Before that, I still had to arrange some things and make sure that the step to take was safe and sound. Even yet, three weeks before that, had I already taken a painful but rational decision: The courtship with My Dear far away in the distance was over...now new steps had to be taken. In this case, move on finding true love where it was to be found.
During those four days has the love of my Father made it clear that true love indeed existed at the streching of my arm. While embracing the dear friend of mine I once met at the beginning of this journey in the promised land, did it become clear.
God is faithful, He did not only give me the frienship of this amazing lady, but the appreciation of her parents as well. As for my friends, they wouldn't agree more on us having a relationship together. This is absolutely amazing, absolutely new.
Not only because of the chance to lie down on the road contemplating the shining stars at 3:00am, but also due to all the experiences lived together so far. From Skating over ice, walking along the beach at sunset, going to concerts together, visiting special places as Madurodam or an Ice sculpture museum, and countless of times eating exquisitely with her folks, was a dear friend of mine born within.
Even when she realized I had a long-distance relationship did she respect it. However, she did not neglect me leaving me unaccompanied while having to mis My Dear every single day. The attributes of pure love, pure friendship, a pure lady.
Dear of mine, [now far away]
The wound of the past relationship is taking time to heal. There are moments in the which I wonder why. But God nows why, He knows what's the best for us both. He has surely united us Spiritually and though a courtship with each other is not a possibility anymore, He knows that the love for each other remains. A frienship's love that will last forever. I will not say good-bye, because it does not exist; but instead, I tell you friend of mine:
never let God's hand go off of yours. He needs you as much as you need Him. Let our Father give you all you need to reveal the world that everything is possible in Christ who strengthens us. (Philippians 4:13) May the wildest of your dreams become a reality as a witness of God's greatness and faithfulness for his children. As for me, I'll continually be praying for you and your house that you may be greatly blessed and used by Him.
Rose of mine,
Your petals are so soft that I fear to harm them with my touch. You've been true to me, your friendship has found a new place in the room of my heart. You're now the radiant flower lying in my window that all people talk about. The flower that gives comfort to my soul when the heaviness of the day has taken its toll. The fragance of your love disperses filling up every corner left in this heart of mine. You're now the flower I delight to contemplate while knowing that you're there.
Now that you know that my room is wide open for your fragance to fill it up, I wait patiently for your petals to open up for me...
My Father in Heaven,
I can hardly believe and understand what's going on. Life has suddenly taken a whole turn on me. You gave me hardships to make me stronger, You gave problems to make patient, You gave me trials to remain faithful, You gave challenges to find trust, have faith, and finally rest in You. Many times do I fail to those trials, but nevertheless does your faithfulness remain. You never let me go, neither do you ever leave me alone.
After those three weeks of darkness, is your light radiating more than ever before.
The blessings are overwhelming and even countless! I love you oh Lord for you loved me first. How could I ever let go of you embracing arms?
Jesus, lover of my soul, let your love and light shine through me that they may open their eyes and see what I see. I praise you and thank you for your unfailing love...
May your name be glorified, Amen.
It was during the conference of 'Opwekking' that it happened. Before that, I still had to arrange some things and make sure that the step to take was safe and sound. Even yet, three weeks before that, had I already taken a painful but rational decision: The courtship with My Dear far away in the distance was over...now new steps had to be taken. In this case, move on finding true love where it was to be found.
During those four days has the love of my Father made it clear that true love indeed existed at the streching of my arm. While embracing the dear friend of mine I once met at the beginning of this journey in the promised land, did it become clear.
God is faithful, He did not only give me the frienship of this amazing lady, but the appreciation of her parents as well. As for my friends, they wouldn't agree more on us having a relationship together. This is absolutely amazing, absolutely new.
Not only because of the chance to lie down on the road contemplating the shining stars at 3:00am, but also due to all the experiences lived together so far. From Skating over ice, walking along the beach at sunset, going to concerts together, visiting special places as Madurodam or an Ice sculpture museum, and countless of times eating exquisitely with her folks, was a dear friend of mine born within.
Even when she realized I had a long-distance relationship did she respect it. However, she did not neglect me leaving me unaccompanied while having to mis My Dear every single day. The attributes of pure love, pure friendship, a pure lady.
Dear of mine, [now far away]
The wound of the past relationship is taking time to heal. There are moments in the which I wonder why. But God nows why, He knows what's the best for us both. He has surely united us Spiritually and though a courtship with each other is not a possibility anymore, He knows that the love for each other remains. A frienship's love that will last forever. I will not say good-bye, because it does not exist; but instead, I tell you friend of mine:
never let God's hand go off of yours. He needs you as much as you need Him. Let our Father give you all you need to reveal the world that everything is possible in Christ who strengthens us. (Philippians 4:13) May the wildest of your dreams become a reality as a witness of God's greatness and faithfulness for his children. As for me, I'll continually be praying for you and your house that you may be greatly blessed and used by Him.
Rose of mine,
Your petals are so soft that I fear to harm them with my touch. You've been true to me, your friendship has found a new place in the room of my heart. You're now the radiant flower lying in my window that all people talk about. The flower that gives comfort to my soul when the heaviness of the day has taken its toll. The fragance of your love disperses filling up every corner left in this heart of mine. You're now the flower I delight to contemplate while knowing that you're there.
Now that you know that my room is wide open for your fragance to fill it up, I wait patiently for your petals to open up for me...
My Father in Heaven,
I can hardly believe and understand what's going on. Life has suddenly taken a whole turn on me. You gave me hardships to make me stronger, You gave problems to make patient, You gave me trials to remain faithful, You gave challenges to find trust, have faith, and finally rest in You. Many times do I fail to those trials, but nevertheless does your faithfulness remain. You never let me go, neither do you ever leave me alone.
After those three weeks of darkness, is your light radiating more than ever before.
The blessings are overwhelming and even countless! I love you oh Lord for you loved me first. How could I ever let go of you embracing arms?
Jesus, lover of my soul, let your love and light shine through me that they may open their eyes and see what I see. I praise you and thank you for your unfailing love...
May your name be glorified, Amen.
Monday, May 09, 2005
Sunday, May 08, 2005
Walk the walk alone,
Know that everyone's there, but not anywhere near,
Feel the burden of responsibility drag you into the ground,
Reach your boiling point, let anger and frustration blow into the skies...
Alas, experiences not one man wants to live through, yet regardless I have lived.
The proof of patience I had to deal with, before the glory of a miracle let me know otherwise. God is there, despite what you live through. Cloudy days cannot diminish the glory of His everlasting light of hope, love, grace, joy, peace, and mercy on me.
I had given it up two minutes before it happenend. I was skating, looking for the place, but instead I had lost my way. After the dreadful day I'd gone through, was every bit of patience vanished into the air. I swore angrily complaining and whining like an unlearend child. Had I had 2 more minutes of patience...
When I had finally found the sport center, the moment I entered my senses were shocked by the layout of the place. 8 tv's were standing in front of the cardio devices; underneath the tv's lay the other fitness equipment right in front of the windows allowing an inviting view of nature delight the sight. Upstairs was the room prepared exclusively for the spinning lessons. Then, Before I entered the dressing rooms, I had to go across the fitness equipment; each one of them designed specifically for the training of nothing more but a muscle groep at a time. Once inside, had the gleam of the woodwork from the lockers caught the sight of my eyes. The neatness and perfection of work made me feel a sport star while I being nothing, was standing there. Before I went out, did my already startled eyes catch a glimpse of the sauna and resting room at my left side. As I went down the stairs, was my mind wondering with the longing of sporting there, but not being able to.
Sure enough, had the sight of it all bewilderd my thoughts. I was happy though, of being able to see it all and knowing that I had the chance to sport there for free at least for one day. Once back at the reception, had the lady who met me at the entrance let me fill some forms and not even knowing why, I simply filled them. As a natural reaction to the last question which said "Why wouldn't you sport with us?", I clearly answered because it was too expensive for me. When she let me see the prices, I had indeed written the right answer.
However, for God knows why, when she asked me which service I'd like to take and I answered the best one (That is, having all priviledges of the facilities), she wrote a joke of a price right next to official one: 9 Euros p/year in relation to 135!
I couldn't believe my eyes, but no...it was for real.
For a whole year am I am now able to sport in one of the most luxurious facilities for a price even cheaper than what I now pay at an already decent but cheap one with also everything on it.
Praise be to God for that!
My thoughts couldn't cope with it. I was speechless, the miracle I had once asked for had happened. Not even in my wildest dreams had I thought of being able to have such possibilities... However, by God's grace, it happened. This may be the beginning of many so longed dreams. I might even be able to work there eventually fulfilling the longings of my heart craved in me so long ago...
God is faithful...and even though I had already smacked His face with the angry words of mine, had his mercy on me once again let me see who He is. I felt so small, I felt so shamed. I could've trusted Him all the way through. I had to ask for forgiveness for the little faith of mine...I was speechless with mingled thoughts of thankfulness, excitement, own disappointment, love for him, shame for myself, wonder for what a Father I have, a Father not easily angered but full of love instead.
Now, with unnamed priviledges, a fresh new start, and a whole new perspective of the chances which this miracle involves, could I go make use of my free hour of training mounted on the bike inside the spinning room following the rythm of the music and changing of the coloured lights letting my mind fly...fly away from wry...
I can say that I'm ready to take a step further into the race of faith which has already been set prepared by the one who brings joy, peace, and love into my heart...
"But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you. To him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen." 1Peter 5:10,11
Know that everyone's there, but not anywhere near,
Feel the burden of responsibility drag you into the ground,
Reach your boiling point, let anger and frustration blow into the skies...
Alas, experiences not one man wants to live through, yet regardless I have lived.
The proof of patience I had to deal with, before the glory of a miracle let me know otherwise. God is there, despite what you live through. Cloudy days cannot diminish the glory of His everlasting light of hope, love, grace, joy, peace, and mercy on me.
I had given it up two minutes before it happenend. I was skating, looking for the place, but instead I had lost my way. After the dreadful day I'd gone through, was every bit of patience vanished into the air. I swore angrily complaining and whining like an unlearend child. Had I had 2 more minutes of patience...
When I had finally found the sport center, the moment I entered my senses were shocked by the layout of the place. 8 tv's were standing in front of the cardio devices; underneath the tv's lay the other fitness equipment right in front of the windows allowing an inviting view of nature delight the sight. Upstairs was the room prepared exclusively for the spinning lessons. Then, Before I entered the dressing rooms, I had to go across the fitness equipment; each one of them designed specifically for the training of nothing more but a muscle groep at a time. Once inside, had the gleam of the woodwork from the lockers caught the sight of my eyes. The neatness and perfection of work made me feel a sport star while I being nothing, was standing there. Before I went out, did my already startled eyes catch a glimpse of the sauna and resting room at my left side. As I went down the stairs, was my mind wondering with the longing of sporting there, but not being able to.
Sure enough, had the sight of it all bewilderd my thoughts. I was happy though, of being able to see it all and knowing that I had the chance to sport there for free at least for one day. Once back at the reception, had the lady who met me at the entrance let me fill some forms and not even knowing why, I simply filled them. As a natural reaction to the last question which said "Why wouldn't you sport with us?", I clearly answered because it was too expensive for me. When she let me see the prices, I had indeed written the right answer.
However, for God knows why, when she asked me which service I'd like to take and I answered the best one (That is, having all priviledges of the facilities), she wrote a joke of a price right next to official one: 9 Euros p/year in relation to 135!
I couldn't believe my eyes, but no...it was for real.
For a whole year am I am now able to sport in one of the most luxurious facilities for a price even cheaper than what I now pay at an already decent but cheap one with also everything on it.
Praise be to God for that!
My thoughts couldn't cope with it. I was speechless, the miracle I had once asked for had happened. Not even in my wildest dreams had I thought of being able to have such possibilities... However, by God's grace, it happened. This may be the beginning of many so longed dreams. I might even be able to work there eventually fulfilling the longings of my heart craved in me so long ago...
God is faithful...and even though I had already smacked His face with the angry words of mine, had his mercy on me once again let me see who He is. I felt so small, I felt so shamed. I could've trusted Him all the way through. I had to ask for forgiveness for the little faith of mine...I was speechless with mingled thoughts of thankfulness, excitement, own disappointment, love for him, shame for myself, wonder for what a Father I have, a Father not easily angered but full of love instead.
Now, with unnamed priviledges, a fresh new start, and a whole new perspective of the chances which this miracle involves, could I go make use of my free hour of training mounted on the bike inside the spinning room following the rythm of the music and changing of the coloured lights letting my mind fly...fly away from wry...
I can say that I'm ready to take a step further into the race of faith which has already been set prepared by the one who brings joy, peace, and love into my heart...
"But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you. To him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen." 1Peter 5:10,11
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